My Secret Crush

My world is in total chaos, yet, just the thought of him still makes me smile.

Yes, it’s a crush – a secret which I’ve held for a while now.

He’s not a hunk, nor overly handsome – But he was pleasant, kind and compassionate.

And, we both shared the same passion for children – we were volunteers for the neglect and abuse children in our community.

I din’t know anything else about him. But there  was something special about him, that whenever he just walks passed me, all my sensual senses were triggered, and my whole world started spinning around. Quite often I whispered, “You are awesome!”

But the honest true is, one day he would call my name, not only once, but twice.

And, since his voice was so soothing, and, ahh! I thought it was my heavenly father trying to tease me.

So I  answered was,  “Lord, may I remind you this is a very bad timing. You know the situation about me and this “Wonderful, compassionate, wish he had a crush on me too guy. Don’t you? Well! He is standing to my right, inside the glass office, and I feel so nervous right now that, I think I’m about to “Pi” on myself. So please excuse me if I reject your invitation to converse right now.”

Of course, God answered me back as well. In fact, his answer was:  “I just answered your prayer  for “That  wonderful, compassionate guy  to call your name, at least once during  your lifetime.” So, be prepared my child, because he’s heading toward you.”

“Oh my God!” I whispered to myself. Afterward, my naked body took a short vacation to Alaska. Yes, I was frozen.

And, when I finally had the courage to turn my head toward the glass office where I thought he was  standing, I realized it was too late. By then, he was already standing right in front of me,  staring at me with a pleasant smile.

“Oh my God!”

So do you remember when I lied earlier and said, “I was so nervous, that I was about to “Pi” on myself?” I have to confess. That was just an expression. Honestly, this time,  it was for real. In fact, after I realized he was handsomely standing there talking to me, I wanted to  take off running like a race track candidate, aiming for the gold medal. But unfortunately, I could not. Why? Because I felt as if my whole body was glued to the chair with the weight of the whole world resting on my shoulder. And the fact that  I couldn’t even open my mouth to answer him back made the moment even more awkward.  And, you really don’t’ want me to tell you the soccer team I felt playing inside  my stomach by then. You know, something  similar to a laxative treatment? And, that’s all I will say about that. .

Seriously, I had to force myself to take a couple deep breaths in order to cool off the hot flashes draining the cool air. In fact in my dream world, I was already painting a sculptured monument of him.  And, what’s worse, while I was busy staring at his cute lips, I couldn’t even hear the question he was asking me. So, I seriously had to force myself to stop my journey to heaven and made a U-turn back to earth. That’s when I realized  his question was pertaining to   a computer program we used in the office. Bummer! But till this day, I can not remember if I actually answered him back.

Yes, I know some of you may find this behavior a bit absurd. Well, in this case, my wish for you if for Mr. Crush will crush you like an unpredicted tornado during a Palmdale summer heat. Only after then, we could dispute our indifferences.

However, for those of you who’ve tasted even a zest of humiliation from a crush, I will confess that I couldn’t even open my mouth just to say: “Good morning” to him.”